I am a forty-one year old mother of three. I have survived physical, mental, emotional and sexual abuses, a failed marriage and a long engagement imploded by my partner’s repeated infidelities. I have been diagnosed with major depression, ptsd and anxiety disorder. I have many facets and have filled many roles. At different times in my life, I have been a student, a teacher, a mother, a daughter, a fiance, a wife, an artist, an author. Throughout my life, I have been both strong and courageous, weak and afraid. I may be a product of my experiences and choices, but I refuse to let them define me. After years of suffering in silence, I have found my voice.
My first book, Unlovable: A Story of Abuse and Depression from Someone Drowning in the Abyss, is available for purchase in both paperback and e-book versions on Amazon.com. It is also available in paperback at Barnes & Noble. My second book, Unbreakable: One Woman’s Journey to Deconstruct Dysfunction and Her Refusal to be Broken Any Longer, is available for purchase in both paperback and e-book versions on Amazon.com.
I have an ongoing blog, entitled Living List, which details my efforts to learn to live my life more fully by turning my dreams and goals into reality, reaching outside my comfort zone and facing my fears.
My newest blog, Sanity from an Insane Mind, is an off-topic blog that gives readers a view of the world through my eyes.
B. L. Acker is the pen name I write under because I touch upon sensitive subjects like mental illness and suicide. While my children are aware of my diagnosis, I avoid putting my name out there so my children’s friends, acquaintances, teachers and coaches do not stumble upon my name and infer the connection. I respect my children’s privacy and their right to discuss the impact my mental illness has had on their lives in their own time and with only those they see fit to share it.